31 December 2007
Yaris
And so here is a blog. One that they will have fun with. My new car. A Toyota Yaris. Nice little car. And even though Dad says he does not like driving with me, my friends have been having a hoot with joy rides.
Been putting the miles on it already as with my job it is all travel to client's homes for music therapy. Going to places all over Mesa and part of Gilbert. One day since I got so lost, yahoo maps did not serve justice in this case, I had racked up 69 miles in that day. Good thing I get paid mileage for the job.
Patience, oh my readers. I need to get settled in more ie moving into my house more (my bedroom is filled with boxes) and adjusting to the 10+ hours daily for the work week (including documentation, driving, sessions); blogging will be scarce for the time being. Oh I have the weekends free. And during those times will be making my getaways to destinations yet to be determined.
17 November 2007
Spirit of the Heart
I pick up the weekly Beach Reporter. Has calendar events so I can find out what fun happenings to attend during the weekend adventures. There is an astrology page. I have found to like this astrology better than the others I have ever read. The astrology seems to be more intuned with real things: mission in life or what not. Perhaps it is no mistake that they have been ringing with certain chord within me.
Here is mine for the week of November 14:
Capricorn:
You have been like a sailor sailing on the high seas focused to make it through the eye of the storm. You have become so sturdy and strong in the fight to get to the other side, you haven't a clue at how much you body and soul has grown in wisdom and strength. You have been adapting and adjusting to circumstances and in many cases paying dues for past choices made, but this week something happens. The seas slow and the waves lower their lift on the bow. A triangle made in the sky in water signs signals a breakthrough in your journey. It is the reason you were ever fighting at all. You will feel and see the distance you have gained and be amazed at your progress. This breakthrough also signals you that it is a time to relax and renew as Mars moves retrograde in your opposite sign. Your dedication is paying off.
I, of course, have been pondering about the words. There seems to me much mystery, especially this water sign from the sky in a form a triangle. What is that? Is it something literal? Something figurative? Something that some fan of astrology would only know?
But I like this horscope very much. In many ways seems to define my current and past few months of life. In some ways, yes like a sailor, a wayfarer, on this journey focused on this moment of life. And being so focused in the mainstream of life, I had not indeed realize how much I have grown in the short time here in LA. Because I have grown in wisdom and strength. This growing will not stop here but continue as I venture onward. But my progress has been minimal to my mind's eye. Not much but still it's something. I am not so sure of a breakthrough per se. Unless this breakthrough points to the decision I made to return to Arizona. But I had been pondering on my return for a few months now. Yes, I am returning.
On my journey of adventures here in LA, the experience and life seems to be but a stepping stone. I consider myself a spirit of the heart. I like to say that my heart directs my life. And in many ways it does, espeically upon reflecting on past life's experiences and decisions. I know the difference between a decision made from the heart and one made from well, not the heart.
I had an interesting dream last night. I would love to share it all but it was so very long, so very detailed, so very vivid. I had gone to bed thinking tonight in my sleep something about the triangle in the sky signal will be explained. Something like that. Well a dream occurred which in part sheds perhaps some light on this mystery. Here follows a synopsis.
I get on this helcopter with three other guys. I seem to know these guys but do not recognize them from any known individuals in my current life (I have dreams with people I know and with people I do not know). We have two dogs with us. One of the three guys is flying the helcopter. We leave mainland and seem to be heading out but yet somewhat close to shore at times. I remember admiring the big ocean swells from above. For some reason one of the smaller dogs and I seem to disappear. This is the part of the dream where it gets patchy and I do not quite understand what is going on. I, the dreamer, seem to stay with the guys some more as it is becomes obvious they are looking for me. I soon leave them and find myself at some building. I seem to have been sleeping or drugged. Not sure which. But I am atop this large buiding with the apartment and an open deck, patio on the roof. Someone takes the small dog that I had disappeared with. I try to argue for it back saying it does not belong to them. But they took it anyway. So here I find myself stranded. The view looks out to sea. It is night. The moon then creates this triangle shape of lighting on the water. And I say, there is the sign! But then start to wonder what it means. As I am staring at it, I hear barking. I look and there is the second dog that had been in the helcopter bounding to me in joy as if finding me. I hug it and look down the side of the building. Then I see the three guys that I had been with. They see me and next thing I know it we are all up on the roof hugging. Well I was actually only hugging one of the guys who I seem to know better as from the way I was talking with him. We leave the building, and one of the guys, who is the pilot then walks a head of us saying oops I was in the triangle. And I was like what? And he said well the two other guys and I form a triangle from our positions when walking. And he did not want to be in the triangle so he walks ahead. The dream pretty much ends there as we seem to take of in the helcopter again and this time looking for that dog that was taken away from us!
I wake up then and was like interesting dream. I certainly dreamt about the triangle but still a bit mysterious to me. I am probably reading too much into it.
Anyway here is the website for the astrology. There is a new one every week, I think comes out every Wednesday: http://www.kristinfontana.com/
01 November 2007
World Unseen
It is almost as thought I have become a miniature and provided such a sight. I feel like I am about to embark through the tunnel or leave a building to the opening of sand and the setting sun!
And some how gives me visions of Arabian Nights. (Not that I ever experienced Arabian nights of sand). But from this perspective one could envision miles of desert with the sun setting. In some ways this is correct... for a wee miniature. The realities between this world and mine that I experience now are quite different if one thinks about it. A whole world waiting to be seen and explored.
31 October 2007
Have yourself a Happy little Halloween
Here we are as in olden days,
Happy Halloween
I could not find the house that had the lifelike heads. Now that was scary. Maybe a good thing they were not there anymore. Have a spooky Halloween. I am going dressed up as a gipsy kind of gal today for work. The only "costume" I have in my sampling of clothes. And realize I will probably be the only one dressed up. Too bad for the others.
30 October 2007
Coastal Sunset
23 October 2007
Red October 23
Overnight it had gone from a massive windstorm to waking up to find that one part of my world is ablaze. LA in my area is not blazing but I did see the fires from my local beach looking up to Malibu. And now I know several people from work/music therapy whose houses are within a five mile radius to some of the fires in Irvine and Anaheim hills. And the weekend getaway I went to just about a week ago and half ago? Reports of flames about 10 miles away from where I was at. This is the tip of the iceberg. I am not even beginning to mention the devastation in San Diego counties.
I have been pretty much staying indoors today. As a result from a decision when I took the ten minute walk from my house to work and back again. I had come down congested from the soot, smoke, and a bit of ash. And I am thinking gee, if it is bad here.....
Even though this is a natural occurrence of nature (however investigation to the start of the fires are being searched) and we may be awestruck by the power of nature, prayers are much needed. There will be thousands upon thousands of people picking up their lives from the ashes of their homes. Lives are changing right now as the realization of their homes do not exist, their livelihoods may likely not exist to the extent they had lived it. Their lives as they knew it changed forever. Bless them, pray for their safety and health.
14 October 2007
A Moment
Sun kissed tree tops
08 October 2007
Changing Perspectives
I would like to share some insights that I discovered with a recent reading. One of the universal laws of the universe (that was created years and years ago and to which major religions/philosophies incorporate part of their beliefs into their systems of beliefs) talks about the Law of Mentalism (God or a form of God that is representative the greater whole, great Mystery).
The law states that everything exists in the mind of God and the mind of God exists within everything. I think this is a rather powerful statement. Powerful because most of society does not live according to this statement. Most "western" religions or modern day thinkers view God as a separate entity. To think that God is inside me and I am inside God. Hmm... one may think. But I think it makes perfect sense. We go "inside" ourselves for reflection, prayer, meditation, and any forms of spirituality that calls for the recognition of self, spirit, soul and to commune with the God in us.
Greek philosopher Epictetus stated: "You are a distinct portion of the essence of god in yourself. Why, then, are you ignorant of your noble birth? Why do you not consider whence you came? Why do you not remember when you are eating, who you are who eat; and whom you feed: do you not know that it is the divine you feed; the divine you exercise? You carry a God about with you."
I do not know about you but after pondering on the quote of Epictetus, if one is to carry this belief of God within us and Us Within God, it changes one's perspective of life. How we live is changed. It calls for a more whole/holistic way of living. It is not like one has to join a convent or start some special society. It is a way that anyone can partake and live a more balanced life. Be an encouragement to do so! At least it does to me.
Actually I have had this thought swimming back in my mind for some time now. Ironically it started after my first meditation sit two years ago. As a result of that experience, I have been slowing evolving, changing. For example, even though I do have an IBS problem that has been existing within me for years, since this time and especially in the last few months, I am changing my diet. Not because I just decided but because something inside me directs me. One may think I am going overboard but when I really sit down to think of what I eat. I do not want to be feeding myself some unhealthy food. And yes, that goes for sugar (cookies, cakes, candy, sweets). Does anyone read the ingredients? Yuck! And food that was not processed in a not so nice way: fast foods? refined sugars, flours, rice and grains? I fortunately have not been much of a sugarholic all of my life so it is an aspect that has been easy to eradicate from my diet. Food then expands to other areas of life including exercise and the likes.
So for me this statement is like hey, wake up! Live a balanced life because you deserve it! A desire to be healthy and happy too. And you know what, when doing this, it does improve how one perspective of life is.
Also, just think because God is in everyone and everyone is in God. Does that not change how we interact with others? Does not that create more love, compassion, empathy, caring for others because we all have God within us? In you? Again, this was another aspect that I thought I came up with after my meditation sit. I changed the way I interact with people. Again it is a slow process but over the two years, have seen some interesting occurrences. Basically when one puts aside the stereotypes, judgements of others, that individual is just like me and you. They have a soul, spirit that is also partaking the journey of life. And think about the valuable lessons and interaction that can occur and how one can help each other build on their experiences of life's lessons of love and living.
It is not easy just because we fall into habits. If we want change it is a process but can be done so. Treat yourself to a walk, to a play, to ramble in the woods, to do a favorite hobby, eat some delicious healthy food. It's amazing how great healthy balanced meals can bring. We still of responsibilities of course but take on responsibilities that are congruent, align with your sense of living a well balanced whole life. One might find a sense of more fulfillment, purpose for life and the journey we are taking.
07 October 2007
What if Bush did Yoga?
Seriously, this got me thinking and was thinking about it some more today as it came back to me. What if Bush did yoga? Would our president be any different? Would the last seven years be any different? Hmm.... thinks I.
I do not by any means support the majority of Bush's statements, actions, and behaviors over the last several years, and if that is not enough, voting not for him hopefully would show some indication that I do not prefer such a man of his character in office leading our nation.
And I thought, what if someone were to send a letter in concern for his health and well being. After all, one wonders about stress levels, pressures and such for a person in presidency. Instead of writing to complain about war issues, environmental issues, human rights, oil, etc. etc. etc., perhaps a letter asking how are you doing? I am concerned about your well being. I am not sure from the outcomes we have seen if you are in need of some time out. Have you considered yoga? Send him off to some revered yoga teacher in India or USA. Have you tried meditation? Go to a Vipassana retreat for 10 days. Go take a walkabout in some beautiful wilderness area with the local people of the region to support and guide you on your journey. Have you spent hours volunteering for a local shelter, habitat for humanity, helping out at some other charity?
The true point I am trying to make here is that in order for us as individuals to see change in our society, we need to start practicing more metta, loving-kindness from the heart. Showing true compassion of love. There are many circumstances in this world that do not support such ideology of peace and love. And many people who do not hold to the idea of this concept by their actions and behaviors we see. It is the whole idea of being one. We are not separate from the earth, each other, God, or the greater universe. We are connected.
It is kind of sad if President Bush were to respond and say no I have not done or choose to do such things. What an opportunity he is missing out not just because to build more compassion and understanding for a person of his position to reach out and learn about the different individuals and cultures that are impacted by a person with this form of leadership, but also misses out an opportunity to reach a part of his soul and spirit that may need a little rejuvenating and healing.
So President Bush, why not try some yoga? Might do the world of good.
23 September 2007
Yoga Walk of Peace
108 Sun Salutations (or variations of 27, 56)
108 rounds of mantra such as the Gayatri or Maha Mrityanjaya
108 rounds of a kriya
108 minutes of meditation, kirtan, movement meditation"
22 September 2007
Storm Day
This picture is looking South, yes South, towards Redondo Beach and the rest of the Palos Verdes Peninsula. Reason for the low visibility? RAIN!! They are sure getting a soakin'. I seemed to be in the perfect location as even though it rather rained lightly, I was hardly wet. And I was even hot with my long sleeve shirt and sweatshirt.
And this is looking North. Wow!! Could not see Santa Monica or the Santa Monica Mountains. Actually, I did wake up during the night. I had thought coming out of my dream state that the airplane was so loud and so unusually close. But realized it must have been a thunderous thunderclap and roll. Happened only once to my knowledge.
The previous series of photos is what I saw out on the beach (two of them). This one at the El Segundo beach. On the normal day this trench is covered over by sand; never knew it existed. Now I understand why there is a crisis beach clean - up after storms. The beach is littered with more trash than usual, especially congregating around these outlets that open up during storms. I was not prepared today but definitely will be in the future--to clean up that rubbish! Maybe a good idea I was not out in my tent (that I do not even possess for that matter), because I may have unwittingly placed myself about these outlets. And whoosh, away I go out to sea! I am starting to laugh just thinking about it. Ah dear.
And so was the day out on the LA coast. I saw a hawk (peregrine Falcon-do they actually exist in these parts?) flying with a fish in its talons and a score of seagulls in pursuit. Did not have my camera handy for this glorious sight.
21 September 2007
Coastal Storm
Just think, just a few weeks ago (like Labor Day weekend), the beaches were amassed with human bodies. One could barely see the sand between the people. I had seen a photo of that weekend. And now look at this picture, a small representation of what the beaches looked like for miles. The only inhabitants with me were the fellow seagulls and sandpipers and the pelicans riding the crests of the waves out at sea. There were some people granted out on the walkway for biking and such but not very many.
Then it started to rain. Big drops. Splat, Splat. I quickly got on my hat and rain coat. I do not mind getting wet but hearing aids are prime importance to stay dry. As long as I have dry hearing aids, everything is fine. Did my little rain celebration dance before hiking it back to the van to sit and read and listen to the rain come down. I did not take off right away so to let the roads get a good soaking before driving. And probably avoid some of the crazies who think they can go 50 mph on five minute fresh wet pavement with the oils coming out.
16 September 2007
Watching the River Run
There is a song, "Watching the River Run,"
that I call the song of father/daughter (namely my dad and I). I grew up with this song starting as a baby with the song sung to me like a lullaby. The song continued to be sung as I got older. And it continues to be sung even though Dad and I are miles apart in the physical sense but rather the song continues whenever we cherish the moments together in our hearts and spirit. For every time I pass a river, every time the words are sung on a breeze, they celebrate the love between father and daughter.
WATCHING THE RIVER RUN
Run, river, run.
The song is written by Loggins and Messina"Eventually, all things merge into one, and a river runs through it. The river was cut by the world's great flood and runs over rocks from the basement of time. On some of the rocks are timeless raindrops. Under the rocks are the words, and some of the words are theirs."
A River Runs through It; written by Norman Maclean.